It ain't perfect.

Time check , 12:10 AM
I'm supposed to sleep alr , or at least in my lala land , as what I told or promised .
No , I'm just mentally tired . But not physically tired .
I'm not supposed to drop a single tear , but I am right now .
Kenglin , why can't you just be fucking strong ?!
Why are you like a stupid , fucking little woman who cries at night .
It's not worth it , can't you see it through ?!

I miss my darlings . )':
I miss their hugs & consoles .
I miss the time when they will use all sorts of method to make me smile.
I miss whining to them , I miss them .

Anyone wanna bring me out for a screaming session ?

So mentally tired , that I don't know what to do already .
Darlings , please see this . Organize 1 outing before all of us are busying with poly life .

It's not your fault , girl .
This isn't what you want .
You ain't perfect , you got your own flaws.
You can't blame this for happening .
You tried , yes . I tried .

Jocelyn darling , blujazz soon . Just the 2 of us or 3 of us .
I miss the calming music there , I miss the friendly waitress who always had a smile on her face .
I miss the dark surroundings , & I miss the silence , except for our chit chatting noises.

I need sleeping pills , to calm me down , and to let me fall asleep asap .

手指不会动了，眼泪不会流了，时间不会走了。