Disappointment.

Thursday.
3 periods of art in the morning, had 45 minutes of lecturing.
Looked at friends cloth who opened up theirs tie & dye, Mr M. said that all of them failed.
After that went in, decided to look for my cloth again, & I found it.
Its at a box on top, & damn. Wasted my tears. I dont know who put it there, but definitely not me.
Maths, was boring. Go through answer for w/s.
Chem, was lab. Dinosaur partner is really, dont know what to say.
Most of the work is he do, & I just in charge of taking the thing here & there.
Lunched. & chinese.
Ss, went to commerce room. Was touring around the school, because me & Roy was like. Where is it ah. ;DD
Released early, because finished doing the work.
Then, started opening up my tie & dye.
Dont know how long passed, & finally finished.
Was like, stretching my whole body. Neck & back so pain. :/
Went to find Mr M. to prepare for the worst.
& just so bingo, it wasnt that goood.
Sad. Hold back the tears that going to drop soon.
Asked where does the problem lies. Its the pulling only.
Requested to do another piece, & he agrees. But if the outcome turns out bad, I cant do tie & dye anymore.
Asked for the grade, worst still. That disappoints me.
Walked back to the court, & finally tears just dropped. Just like that.
Went toilet to change for training, & thanks girls. :]
I appreciate it alot. Thanks for all the encouragement.
Finally stopped crying like a kid, & went to have match.
Dismissed & went home.
Showed parents the art piece, & went back room to study.
Dont wish to hear any comments at that time, told my mum about the grades & what the teacher says.
Was so tired that I dozed off at 9:30 on the study table.
Mum waked me up, & went to sleep.

Friday.
Chinese was doing report.
Sorry darlings, was a little sian. Because, stomach cramp.
English, was like going to lalaland.
Recess, played the burger game & hei bai pei w/ Darlings.
After that, nearly cried out again. :/
Maths test again. Dont know what happened to me, suddenly mind blanked.
Was staring at the paper for around 15 minutes, & faster complete it.
Scored badly, I think. D: Hais, so saaaaad.
Class period, go through the O level thingy.
& great, next Sat still need go collect newspaper & old clothes.
Early in the morning some more, I want sleep.
Some more, I wonder if the residents will be awake by us.
Definitely, we'll be so noisy. ;DD Ha.
Chinese program, do the book again & nothing much.
After that, went home.



It was such a bad disappointment afterall.
I didnt expect all this to happen at one go.
At first, I'm still thinking that I could do well.
I had all the confidence in me.
Until yesterday, everything's being strucked down.
F9, whats w/ that grade of mine.
It just so hurting, I put in all my best for the work.
& thats the outcome.
Thinking about it, I just cant help but to feel sad about it.
Maybe, from this failure. I learnt something.
Maybe, the next art piece I'll do will be a better one.
Hope it turns out like this, if not.
I dont know how long am I able to hold on.









Tags replies :
Rowena Darling : Ha, very nice uh. ;DD next time I do again for you & Jocelyn lo. I'm such a gooood girl. XD

Michelle : Ehs, cute what.

Junsi : Ha, yeahs. I didnt know that he share w/ you guys. So shocked. Like wah, thinking got spread until whole school know. ;DD but, its a tradition. Lols.

Jocelyn Darling : Ha, yeahs. Forgot to tell you all leh. :/ old le old le. Nah, its okay la. Its my work, I want to do it on my own. :] Thanks darling. Appreciate it alot.