Something's wrong

I dream , I dreamt . Of all sorts of rubbish .
Since I knew that it was all rubbish from the start , then what am I fretting about ?
I know , I knew . That those thoughts shouldn't be in my mind .
Then why is it no matter how hard I tried to shake it off , it just doesn't want to get out my mind then ?
Oh why , why , WHY ?
Perhaps , I'm just thinking too much . But it's not too much , it's way way way way tooooo much .
Arrrrgh , I hate it . I loathe it . Sucks ? Yes , I definitely sucks . Right from the start .
I'm just wondering , what's your motive , your intention . Or , what you're hinting at . Damnit !
No use fretting , cos it's not worth it at all.

Something was wrong - more wrong than it already was .

ECP with dearest & dinner with lovelies ~

Ecp with dearest first , but lost my way on the way there .
Alight at the wrong bus stop everything , phoned darlings or help . Hah !
In the end managed to find my way there though . I screamed through the phone when I finally saw the underground pass . /:
Hated it when I needa walk alone through the underground tunnel . The first thing that came to my mind was , will there be someone holding an umbrella or some wierd stuffs happening in there .
So , just walked quickly through it . Lunch @ macs , watching soccer through the tv there . Tooo many handsome guys already , I'm practically glueing the tv all the way . Jealous , dearest ? ;D
After that , rent bike while he rollerblade . Left knee a little pain , exert too much strength alr .
First , the gear got some problem . Even when I wanna adjust it also cannot .
Secondly , the wind there is so strong that I'm like fighting against the wind . Can die ~
On the way cycling back , there's this young little girl kept crying when she's like cycling . So I was like wondering what happened luh , what
makes her cry until so jialat , you know .
According to dearest , the girl was tired so she doesn't want to cycle anymore , but her mummy was still cycling uh .
No wonder the mum keep tell her to keep on peddling . Hah , what a cute girl ! (:
Returned back the bike , while he went to continue training his rollerblading skills . Lols !
Take a rest @ burger king , then went to the beach there & enjoy the breeze .
Hah , dearest just loves to snap pictures at unknown strangers . LOLS ! :s

Went back home after that , underground tunnel still a horror even when there's someone with me .
Bathed everything , meet my two lovely ladies & had dinner @ Ajisen .
Such a long time since we three sat down together & have a meal together . Enjoyed it , gossips around . Talked about work & almost everything (:
Slacked , & home sweet home . :D
Today's outing was just simply awesome !!!!! ;D
more outings soooooooooon ~

Lies hidden beneath masks .

Time check : 1:35 am
Most of the time , I'll be already sleeping soundly , kicking my blanket down the bed .
Two hours ago , I'm complaining tired .
Two hours from then , I'm lying on my bed . Piglet staring at me innocently . Everyone should be asleep , except for me .
Something is bothering me , but I'm clueless about what is that actually . :s

Work seems fine , customers not giving me any problems . All were friendly , all had smile on their faces . Encouraging though , to encourage me to work even harder . Serving such customers brings me happiness .
But on the other side , work seems not fine . Because , I'm running between 2 , no , is 3 places this week . Tampines , to millenia walk , to vivo , then to millenia walk , & back to tampines on weekends .
Another reason is that , I can't , I will never ever tolerate the silence . Without big sister there with me to play & chat along with me , the silence is just too intolerable for me to take . I need to blast the music , I need to sing along with the songs . I need to check my phone from time to time to check if there's any text . I need to bring along a book , to kill away the boredom & the silence .
It bothers me whenever I realized that the music has stops , the shop just feels so lonely , & I'll feel the same way like how the shop feels . Lonely & more lonely .
It's so sad , no , pathetic even , to know that my life hat consist of work , home , work and home . Where's my youth ? Where's all those fun that's awaiting for me ?
Upset right now , for I couldn't attend the class bbq . I just missed my secondary school friends , I just wanna know how've they been thus few months . Stupid job , I hate you now ! Because of you , I've gotta sacrifice my class gathering . Damn you , stupid stupid job !

What's up next ? I've got no idea .
I just wanna keep on ranting and ranting , until I got sick if it .
I ........... just .......... feeels .......... like .......... DRINKING . :s
First time ever , I wanna go buy those liquors & get myself drunk .

Nothing seems to perk me up right now . Not even the mention of Show name , not even my favourite Jungmin .
What keeps me going these few days , was the continuous reading of new moon .
Ohhey , Jacob , your unrequited love towards Bella .
Your sacrifices for her , just to make sure that she's alright and in one piece ,
Edward , I hate you . /: for hurting Bella , for the pain that you caused her everytine she dreamt of you or when your name was mention .
But why , oh why , tell me why , why Bella & Edward still got back together ?
Unfair , these is totally unfair ! Jacob , then , what's going to happen to him ? What did he get in the end ?
Aaaaaaaaah , I should stop all these stupid nonsense . What's wrong with me ?
But , it's always so touching when it comes to Jacob part , when I know that if I continue reading I'll be sobbing , but I just wants to continue & continue .
Romance , why is it so hard to tackle ? Why , oh please , tell me why .

Wake up , you silly girl ! Yes yes , I should pull myself back to reality . There's no vampires nor werewolf existing in this world .
I miss schoool . Even though I hate it when I gotta pull myself out of my bed , & dragged myself to school , & when lessons always end late .
I miss my classmates , even though when there's misunderstanding . But they never fails to be there when you need a listening ear .
I miss my maths group , cheuk hin , Jeremy , decong , daryl & Joshua . Those stupid jokes , & always getting chased out of class because they caught talking in class .
I miss art lessons , when everyone will run everywhere & anywhere just to get a peep of what others were drawing . Esp when there's bee that flew in , where the girls were busy screaming their head off , searching of something to protect from getting a bee sting .
I miss recess & lunch breaks . Because it's time when I meet up with my darlings to talk & gossip around . I miss getting nagged by them , I muss those stupid faces they gave me when I said or do something wrong . I miss how we laughed our head off over small jokes , or even when we were teasing one another .
I miss basketball trainings , I miss shouting the basketball cheers , I miss running around , I miss the times when we used towel to smack at each other . I miss playing match with the usual ones . I miss cheering each other on , or giving a pat on the back to concern about one another . Lastly , I miss the coach who always got fooled by us .
I miss the teachers , I miss the drink store always so cheerful auntie .
I miss studying session with Rowena at school . Always promised to say that we'll study , but in the end , we sat there gossiping & touring around the school .
I miss my uniform , my books , my bag , & my beautiful seat near the window .
Ohman , I miss school , damn damn lot .

Enough enough , that's all past . Yes , it's all past ): how sad .

I need a screaming session , yes . There's like something bottling up in me .
I need sleeping pills , to let me fall asleep .
I miss my big sister , so that she can give me advice in what to do next .
I miss Rowena , for it's been so long since we last went out . Outing as promised , it'll be soon .

Oh my , my dear boy , I need you right now , after all those mess .
I want you to lock your fingers to mine , & not let go .
I want you to always play with my hair , & say that you're jealous of my long hair .
I like to hear you say , eh , you eat very slow eh .
And many more , I need a hug now , yes now . You promised .
Dear boy , yes yes , you know what I wanna say . Imissyou .

Lock your eyes to mine , & say you love me .

Outing with LOVE .

Just came back from Marina Square with Dearest . :DD
Trained down to City hall & had lunch at Waraku . Walked around before heading to the theatre to get our tickets for the spy next door .
Movie was great , funny uh .
City link , shared ice cream with dearest . Heh , then trained back home .
Had a great time with dearest , even though these few days things wasnt going right .
But meeeting up with dearest is the best choice ever . :D

Off I go watching my show alr . Loves (:

My LOVE ! ;D

Guess who I saw today while at work ?
Heh , it's none other than my beloved DEAREST ! :DD
I'll continue when I got onto this part .

Almost late for work today , cos I woke up 40min late /:
Rushed throughout the whole morning , able to get there on time .
Then , the trainee came , taught her what to do everything .
Sister bought breakfast for me ! (: kind soul isn't she ?
Then joke around with her as usual , like how we always did . But this time felt a little uneasy cos there's one extra person like a lightbulb looking at us whatever we do .
Before lunch , went UOB bank with sister to bank in the money.
Then went tm for our 1hr lunch break .

Went back to shop , as usual , chit chatted when I realized that there's someone so familiar outside .
Then I knew that it's my dearest laaaaa ~
but still in shocked , not knowing how to react . LOLS!
Sweeeeet sweeeeet , cos supposed to go out @ Monday , but cos there's something that changes at the last minute & I need to settle my MOE stuff , so did not went out .
Heh , next weeeeek . Okay ? ;D

I wanna watch Valentine's . Seeeeems nice , though .
But let's catch the Jackie chan movie first . (:
Tomorrow going to get 3 lollipops or more , to prevent us from feeling tired early in the morning .
At least sweet can help to perk us up , right ?
Orchard tmr with sister , wheeeee ~
But can't wait for Friday the most , getting our nails done preettty ! :D

Oh , & sorry junsi sexaye today . /: unable to pei you for lunch .
Some other day uh . (;

Anyone wanna have an ice cream?

Bored! Hah , wanting to watch the channel u gambling show , but parents wants to watch the news now .
Updating the blog due to my randomness . /:
oh oh , I just finished a cup of ice cream . Yummmmy ~
So , I'm also randomly asking if anyone wanna have a mouth too . LOLS!
Yes , I know I must be too bored until I became so random . ._.

Tomorrow a newcomer is coming over for training or the new outlet at vivo .
But , both the sister will not be there until noon , which means , I need to teach her how to do everything .
Well , hopes nothing will went wrong .

I wanna go universal studio & play those rides !!
It's so tempting /:
Stop right here & off I goes seeing if there's any new game for me to download . Bye peeeeps ~

Cabbed down to school as the office lady said that I need to reach before 4.
So, reasons to cab down :
• it was already 3plus when I left home
• lazy to wait for bus
• and of course, I don't wanna cross the overhead bridge & walk under the scorching sun.
Reached school , was in a mess . Cos I was way too confused & was rushing all the way though .
The office lady told me to write my info on a small piece of paper & yet I still write on an A4 paper.
So , the offlice lady also don't know what to say , end up both of us laughing & I kept repeatingly apologizing to her .
Everything done , thought that I could finally get out of the office when Mr Tan starts to ask me about the courses I apply.
Then he wants me to join the school alumni . I already said I dont want alr , but he still went up to get the form .
So , no choice cos the office lady says that I owe her a favour as she helped me to fax my things over to the MOE .
Being a good soul , sat there & waited for Mr Tan to come back with the form.

Went over to the basketball court as the girls were preparing to leave for the match alr.
Walked over to fengshan cc , watched .
End game , went back to school for awhile and went home.


Working tomorrow from 10-6.
It's time for me to go into my lala land.
But , I just don't wanna . Heh . /:
I think it's time I stop here alr . Toooodles ~