What I want is your answer

Gastric is in pain now .
Firstly , didn't have much today for lunch .
Secondly , ate too much for dinner .
Thirdly , maybe I'm just too stressed up . Whenever I'm stressed up , I just don't feel well . :s

I think , I'm not going to bother anymore .
Because , I don't have the rights to interfere in your life .
Yes , I'm just too nosy for you .
I'll stop , from now onwards .

I just wanted to hear some answers from you .
But it seems like , I won't be able to get your answer .
Then forget it . Girl , you gotta be strong .
This is not going to be the same anymore .

Yes , I know i'm not your priority .
& you'll never be mine . Anymore .
It's too tiring to know that the more you cared , it will become a problem in the end .
& to even know that the other party doesn't bother .

Afterall , after all these turns , I realized who actually cared .
It's like a roller coaster ride .

I'll never know how to express my gratitude to those who cared .
To those who can instantly knew that something was wrong with me , & tried to cheer me up just at the moment .

I'll be alright soon .
Goodbye . This ride , I can no longer take it anymore .

& I know you do .

It's already pass midnight . *yawn*
Anyway , went to celebrate ahgong's birthday 9 hours earlier .
Watched hello baby using ahyi lappy .
Till around 6 plus , left to the restaurant venue located at changi , SIA airlines . Like LOLS .
Gave ahgong his prezzie , a massager .
12 dishes , & the portions is really huge . Normally , I will just take 1 serving for all kinds of food . Except for today , I needa take 2 or 3 .
It's really so omg alot . The food is more than enough for 10 people . :s
While eating , you can stare outside & see the aeroplane flying above your head .

Been helping brother to do some electronic thingy . I just need to put a layer of glue around the needle , & he just need to place the needle in some small black container . We just completed one set , which means he just earned his 12.50 bucks . :D
I'm gonna pester him to buy me kinder breno as my reward . Heh .

Camp from Monday to Wednesday . *faints* hope it's fun though .

Anyway , Jocelyn darling
I read your blog post . & I know your worries .
One of your greatest one , is that you're afraid that one day , we will not be as close as we used to be .
& seriously , you this stupid silly girl . Hah , *point at you & talk sense into you *
I'll never let these happen , to US . (:

I'm not a fool to let go of one of my best precious thing .
Poly starting , & actually , there should be an outing for us before school life starts again .
& this new school life is a new beginning .
We will not be able to see each other in school , or even having the same class . ):
But this doesn't means that I will 喜新厌旧 .

You never know how Rowena & you meant to me .
It's like , this bond will never be broken . Threesomes always .
& of course , in all friendships , there will tend to be a quarrel among each of us .
But in the end , it's still fine .

The best damn thing is that , you will always be with me no matter what happens .
Although you're not there by me , but you know , you're always emotionally there .
Because , I know that you cared for all single little small things that happened to me .
It's like , no matter what happen to me , you see that as a major problem .
I'm truly lucky to have you as my friend , girl .
Cos you never fail to be there .
Remember those tough periods I got , you was the one who pulled me out . Who never fails to lend me your ear for me to rant , your shoulder for me to lean on & cry for all I want .
You were always there , asking me out . Cheering me up , texting & showing all your concern through texts .

How will I able to break this friendship of ours ? Silly girl . (:
I'll always be there too . We still can meet up during weekends , or have dinner together every Friday .
There's definitely a chance for us to meet .
& I know how much you missed me . This really touched me .
Hah , I missed you , & am still missing you . (:

All the best in your poly life .
I'll always be your friend , forever .

Tears is all I left .

I'm done with clearing my thoughts .
I'm done with crying like a big idiot .
I'm done with everything that upsets me .
It's all done , just left with a answer .

Okay , my eyes are red , puffy .
My nose is blocked . Waiting for it to be unblocked , so that I could get my sleep .
crying really does helped though . Helped me getting tired . :s
Although it's not as if I'm not tired enough .
I'm both emotionally & physically .

I'm on my own now . I'm gonna be strong .

& lastly , I miss my super Rowena darling , & not missing out my lovely Jocelyn darling .
I'm missing both of you like crazy .

Bye .

GENTING TRIP

COUSIEEE & ME ! :DD

Well , shall not elaborate much on my trip .
I only can say that , long bus rides bore me out .
The moment I step into the coach , straight away , listen to my songs & off I lay there asleeep .
6 hours bus ride to Genting . *faints*

Day 1 :
Reached Genting around 1 plus . Lunch-ed , check-ed in .
Shopped around .
Buffet for dinneeer . foooood was delicious , appetite was GREAT !
Fall asleep at 11 plus . :s

Day 2 :
Woke up at 8 plus .
Buffet for breakfast . not much choices of foood .
Buy ticket for bus ride down to KL . Journey : 1 hour ++
Buy ticket for monorail . trained down to some part of KL .
Lunched at one shopping mall .
Bought chocolates , biscuits , cardholder for brother ( he wanted one long ago ) .
Shopped around till 5 plus , back to Genting .
Put all our shopping stuff at hotel , walked outside for dinner .
Misty , & coooooling . :D

Day 3 :
Aunt went casino while we were sleeping .
Packed all our stuff , checked out . & lunched at Mac.
Went around shopping for some small souvenirs .
Didnt bought much , cos nothing appeals . :x
Took the coach , with TV & GAME ! the previous one , the bus driver didnt on it for us .
So , watched one movie . Played SUPER MARIO !
Continue to sleeeeep again .
Bought fooods at a stop . For papa esp , & the rest for relative .
Reached Singapore around 8 plus 9 .
Dinner-ed . Cabb-ed back down to Aunt house .

& now I'm back home . Took a nap from 12 plus till 4 plus .
In between , woke up a few times to reply my msg . :s
Sorreh R darling , cant pei you go Tamp starhub today . Meeeet up sooon . (:
Just finished uploading all the pictures @ FB .
Feeling a little tired as usual .
I AM SUPER NOT USED TO SINGAPORE TEMP ! :x
Slowly get used to it then . LOLS !
off I go playing my FB game . :D

:D

Okay , I'm here to blog for a while before I left for my aunt house & my trip to genting . :D
Friday & Saturday was spent with none other my Rowena darling .
Summarize for friday :
Suntec city - watched Diary of the Wimpy Kid - bought ice cream @ Marvellous - City hall - darling treat dinner - japanese buffet - damn full after that - trained back home .

Summarize for Sat :
went rowena home first - walked to Kampong Chai Chee for K - sang from 2 all the way to 6 plus - ahma's home for dinner .

Pictures are all in FB .
I packed all my stuff in my bag already .
Passport , chargers , itouch , camera , phone . CHECKED ! :D
Jacket , shirts , shorts , jeans . CHECKED ! :D
In the moooood of travelling already .
But but , this means that , I'll miss everyone . ):

I'll definitely miss dearest , darlings , sister , papa & mama .
& my piglet , pooh & pink panther . )':

Waiting for my aunt to come over & fetch me .
Will back to blog by wednesday or thursday . With pictures definitely .

<3 !

Define LOVE

When we love , we do not seek on our own interests .

Rather we think in the interests of the ones we love .

So whenever we love , it hurts .

But love is a stage of calmness , maturity , not an impulse .

It protects us from being hurt .

Raining seasons for the past few days , there goes my plan of going to ecp for cycling .

But right now , there's sun out there . :s

Slept till 1 plus today , & finally willing to wake up .

Super uber bored these few days . I want many many outings before I starts school .

Received a msg from R , & was so happy for her .

Last long , darling . (: OKAY ! I GOT FOOLED BY HER ! D:

These few days have been life-less .

Firstly , was because I'm way toooooo bored .

Secondly , too much things happened .

Thirdly , I dont have the intention to liven up my moood .

Okay , I've got tricked by KENGHAO .

HAPPY APRIL FOOL . pfffffft , how I wanna take his head and bang already .

Anyway , I miss chinese lesson so much that I wanna find someone who's willing to chat with me on msn using chinese . CAN?!

I miss writing chinese words on paper or my workbook . ):

I wanna go back to secondary 3 or 4 life .

Lastly , I miss studying .

I miss wearing my school uniform .

I'm wondering , if things are too hard for me , or us to continue .

Isnt it hinting us something or giving us a red signal ?

Sighs .

Its time to slowly pack up all my stuff into my bag already .

If not , I dont think I have the time to do so .

I'm half officially moving over to my aunt house .

Because , this owner doesnt like to travel so much .

& if lesson starts in the morning , this means that this owner gotta wake up early .

I DONT LIKE LACKING OF SLEEEEP !

So , I'm gonna stay at my aunt house when school or lessons are early for me .

But , I'll be coming back to my orginal home if my time table permits me to .

Dont miss me . :D esp darlings . HAH , when I'm at bedok I'll give both of you a call for a meetup .

& maybe a brand new place , means a brand new start afterall ( if things really changed ) .

Okay , off I go watching show . (:

Month ahead

It's the first day of April . & it's April fool day .
Not in the moood of tricking other people into these .
Well , I'll definitely miss secondary school life though . When the first thing you stepped into the school or saw people who you knew , & they already used their tricks on you without knowing .
Like , hey ! You dropped your money , there's an insect behind you , & many more .
Because , I'm always the one who fall for their tricks .
Especially the insect part . :s last time , I'll always fall for their tricks was because I didn't know that that particular day was April fool day .
But this year I'm wiser , I remembered . (:
so what if I remembered , because I can't use this tricks on anyone .

It's April already . Ohmygoooooood .
Which means poly life is going to start soon .
After around 4 months of relaxing , or not touching any books for tests whatever .
We're going to start our next 3 years of study life .
Anyway , bye march . & hi , April . (:

I'm done with my post .
Simply , I don't even feel like blogging actually .
Firstly , I can't fall asleep .
Secondly , I just simply got nothing to do so I choose to blog .

Okay , off I go & continue staring at my wall till I'm sleepy to sleep .